11:38PM
surprisingly, i didn't cut myself today. in my last post, i was very adamant in doing so. but i guess i forgot and i don't really have the urge to do it. i don't know what to do with that information. i should be proud, but it's such a tiny "win" (if you can even consider it that. it's embarrassing if anything.) that it doesn't even matter.
i promised myself that i would do some schoolwork since i didn't do anything yesterday. however, i fear i did the same shit. absolutely no work done. it's only a little past 11:30PM though. i guess i could start outlining my papers that are due next week.
bought some binge food earlier. can't wait to eat it all and feel even worse about myself.
when this is all over (this being school) i'm finally gonna restart my life. i've desperately been wishing for one. i just need to focus on not killing myself as these days pass by. lol.
oh, i also napped earlier. i woke up from it and felt fucking terrible and disgusting.
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