changes
the title may not be super fitting to what i'm talking about, but that's okay. i just need to get this off of my chest.
i'm considering breaking up with my boyfriend and i feel like a huge asshole. i feel like an asshole for even having that thought, but lately, i don't know if i want to stay with him anymore.
i feel really selfish for admitting that to myself. i don't think i wanted to admit that to myself months ago, but now i just don't feel the same way about him i guess. he struggles with depression and it's been really bad. i don't think i can handle it, and i don't want to wait any longer for him to change.
i know he goes to therapy and that in itself is a huge step, but i feel like i'm his only support. and truthfully, i kind of am.
i get annoyed because i do make time for him and i tell him constantly that i love him and that i care, but all i get is just him pushing me away. i'm so tired of it, like to the point i don't even care. it's not my responsibility to make sure he's happy all the time.
he needs to figure this shit out on his own. i'm sorry if that sounds selfish. maybe it's not fair because i know i can be a piece of shit, but my god he just can't lock in. it's so frustrating and i'm so done.
i don't know.
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