void
i feel, like, numb. i'm not happy most of the time. not even content. it's more of an indifference that can easily be persuaded to sadness.
i spend time with people i like to feel happy. it's like euphoria.
i don't know what i'm gonna do anymore. why is it me that always has to make the hard decisions. i hate this shit. i don't win. no matter what, someone is going to get hurt.