yeah ok
i can’t remember the last time i was at peace with myself. i don’t think my brain allows that anymore.
i’m just meant to be miserable. i don’t fucking care if i sound whiny. i don’t care. i love being angry. i love being upset. that’s all i ever feel. i love making poor decisions that give me instant gratification. i’m so unhappy. i just want to get drunk. i need to get drunk. please god just give that to me.
i love self sabotage. i love isolating myself from my friends and family.
this is all bullshit. i hope i die. i hate everyone i know. i wish i didn’t meet any of them. they ruined my second semester. i hope they all rot and die.
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